Did I fuck myself/ lose my stack

I somehow seem to have forgotten the PIN to get into my cold card. I was very sure on it but now seems I mispunched it or actual forgot somehow. I do have my metal seedplate, am I correct in assuming I have (assuming I do not recall it in the next 5 tries) bricked the cold card, but I can recover the wallet elsewhere? Or am I just totally and completely screwed? I did my tests and everything when I set it up, not sure how tf I messed up in the meantime but argh. All savings for the last nearly two years... this would hurt. A lot.