I’m officially done calling Bitcoin a 'hedge', it’s just Nasdaq in a leather jacket and it just kicked me in the teeth

I’m tired, man.
I really fell for the 'safe haven' narrative again. Every time the macro gets shaky, I tell myself: 'This is why you hold BTC. It’s the hedge against the system.' Then some tariff headlines drop, stocks take a slight dip, and BTC decides to do a backflip off a cliff below $64k.
I was looking at the charts today and it’s just painful. Gold is doing exactly what it’s supposed to do. Meanwhile, my crypto portfolio looks like a crime scene. It feels like we’re just trading a high-leverage version of tech stocks. When the world gets scared, we don’t get a hedge; we get a liquidation party.
A few things I realized while staring at my red candles:
1. Correlation is a bitch. It doesn’t matter how decentralized the tech is if the money trading it is the same money panic-selling NVDA.
2. The 'Digital Gold' tag is a trap. In a crisis, people want actual safety, not 24/7 volatility that can wipe out your margin in a single tweet.
3. Leverage makes it 10x worse. The cascade below $64k was so fast I didn't even have time to hedge.
Honestly, I was so tilted I didn’t even want to touch my main bags, so I hopped onto my BYDFi demo account just to see if a short hedge would have actually saved my ass if I had pulled the trigger at $66k. Turns out the math works, but my brain was just too frozen to actually execute it irl.
I’m just venting at this point. I'm still holding, but the "hedge" dream is dead for me.
How are you guys coping?
Are you actually selling or just closing your eyes and hoping for a bounce?
Does anyone here still genuinely believe BTC decouples from macro when things get ugly?
Or is 'Digital Gold' just something we tell ourselves so we feel better about the volatility?